Putting "godly" before God

                         So this is my first post. Hi, I'm Heather and this is my first time to write for a blog. Please keep that in mind as you read this :). My heart has been under pressure this week, pressure that has revealed to me some of my deepest flaws. The lesson I have learned can be stated like this: " "godly" does not come  before God."  Number one, I have been putting  finding a "godly" boy over our creator. Secondly, I have been putting perfecting "godly " music above Him.
           Ever girl wants that perfect fairytale boyfriend who offers to pray, who raises his hands in worship, who is just the total preacher boy package.  He's got all the girls swooning with his Bible talk. Now all these are great things, and gosh darn it, any boy doing so should get a pat on the back. But putting that godly boy and your feelings for him  above the God who created you out of true love is wrong.  No one will measure up to infallible. Humans make mistakes. It's called sin, something we all do. But Christ will NEVER forsake us. His feelings  for  us are eternal.
                   Worship music. My best friend and my worst enemy at times. I so often find myself wanting recognition for singing something so "holy". "I'm  such a great Christian because I sing about Jesus."  "Look at me raising my hands." "I've got wisdom to spare." Now these are just a few examples of this  haughty monster  pride.  She consumes us taking up every thought, every memory, making us slaves to her unending cycle. First comes gift, then comes pride, then comes missery that fills your life.
I heard some one say that all we really want is God but we just don't realize it. We are dis focused by our me colored glasses. But when we take the blinders off something beautiful happens. You know what that is? Peace.
I'll be honest. I want attention. I want love. But most of all I want purpose. That is exactly what He gives me.  Like no boy can do God loves me and knows everything there is to know about me, even how many hairs are on my head :).  And like no worship song can do he brings enjoyment and a humbling pride that  takes my eyes off of myself and brings them to a much prettier picture.

"But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you."
                                                                      Matthew 6:33